What’s up with me!
Haven’t written something personal here in a while so here it goes. What’s up with fucking John Fallon? Well as you know I went to Vancouver BC for over two months. Loved the city and its scenery. The ocean and the mountains wowed me but business wise; it wasn’t really what I was looking for. I would’ve stayed longer to fully figure that out, but a little snag went down that prompted my return: I almost had a stroke.
Ya see a doctor prescribed me these pills to help one thing that HE THINKS is wrong with me (we still don’t know whats up) but the pills had a sour side effect on me; they augmented my blood pressure so high that my whole left arm and left of my face went numb – I talked like Stallone at that point. Anyways, at 3AM in the morning, I rushed out in the city, found a cab and got my ass to the emergency. Tests and injections ensued and they managed to bring my pressure down. The doctor told me that a couple of minutes longer with no treatment and it would’ve been stroke time for Johnny. NOTE TO SELF: Punch that first Doctor who gave me them pills…hard… fucking jerk…
As we speak whatever is wrong with me is still somewhat up in the air. I recently came back to “film industry graveyard” Montreal and underwent a series of tests and am now awaiting the results. This is all new to me. I never get sick or ill. Till now. Getting old blows! As I type this, I am pretty messed up physically (my body is fighting something, always adjusting to something) hence I often feel drained. Needless to say that mentally this whole NOT KNOWING what’s wrong while my body is going through some kind of inner war with itself is not doing me any good. So I haven’t been in the best of moods… my tolerance for bullshit is definitely at an all time low and I struggle daily to be “up beat”.
On the upside, this is the second time in my life that I flirt with death and I got to say it, it gives you a fresh perspective on things. You see things differently after the Reaper back-hands ya. You recognize more what are the positive and negative elements (and people) in your life, hence able to make decisions that you wouldn’t have made before. When I got back to Montreal, online interaction aside (have to cause of the job), I shut lots of the world out, just because I needed privacy and needed to be with myself. So I am now in the process of using this new found perspective to make yet more big decisions as to my personal life and career path. It’s a work in progress.
Other than all this doctor, body saying screw me crap – am writing my next script at the moment, it’s a giallo and its going to own. Am also finishing up the sound mix on THE RED HOURS which will FINALLY be put out by the end of the year. OLD NUMBER 7 just played at the Filmets Festival in Spain and it did well, so am happy bout that. RECON 2023 played in Australia, went fine, happy there too. Am now looking at Gyms around the city, am going to join one so I can train while here. I also bought myself an XBOX 360 and am killing NHL 2010! Fun times!Finally, thank Crom for hockey season being on, been going to lots of games and it helps keep my spirits up. So that’s it for now, back to the fight I go!